I have ordered the Allan Watts book. Anxious to see how he spells out how our brain works at deceiving ourselves.
It is my heart that thought has us going around in circles. We have to see thought for what it is. Thought. Existence is not what thought tells us. It has a depth that we miss that lies beyond man made thought.
Human consciousness is creativity, love and freedom.
Sorry about your broken wrist and now the surgery.