Ayodeji, “Take whatever negative thought about yourself you have and question it to death”.
Have you thought of questioning what thought really is? Does it have an essence or is it just thought saying here is a thought and another one.
When we see thought as simply thought. A tool as a pointer to life and not life itself. A ton of energy behind our constant barrage of thoughts is freed up.
There is a different feeling and freedom to life that doesn’t come and go.
It is the real deal. I do think you have discovered this. But you need to see you no longer need to fight to keep it. It is the source of what you are.